I'm lost...

Here I lie awake,
With tears in my eyes that won't go away,
Feeling lost,
Of my direction in life.

It was fun at first,
But it is not at last,
It was amazing in the beginning,
But it is not that great in the end.

I wanted to jump,
I wanted to leap,
But what's the point?
When I don't know what I want.

On the outside,
I look as if I'm doing fine,
But on the inside,
The comfort that I used to have is gone.

I drown myself with work,
I drown myself with activities,
Still... when nite comes,
All the sorrow are there by my side.

Dear god,
There is a blankness in me,
So please...
Fill in the blanks for me......