Not attractive...

There's a girl who were born a cry-baby. Since young she like to cry when she's awake, when she's eating and even when she wants to sleep. At first the parents thought there's a problem with this girl and tried a lot of method to make her stop crying so much.

Her sister don't quite like her cuz she likes to cry. The brother will ignore her when she's crying. The cousins and relatives don't like her cuz she cry for a small tiny matter. When she grew older, she didn't cry that much. Only cry when she's been teased and bullied.

At the age of three, she didn't like to talk. Will only nod or make some hand gestures whenever the parents talked to her. It made the parents worried as kids at the age of three will talk and talk and talk non-stop, but not her. She's so quiet except when crying. The parents got worried that their daughter got problem with speaking so they planned to bring her to Singapore for an operation, "cut-tongue" in cantonese.

The girl know of their parents plan and she know she got no problem with speaking. Just that she don't want to talk. She even sat there thinking, "Mommy, daddy, I got no problem with speaking, but I just don't want to talk. Don't force me OK?", but of course the girl didnt say it out loud. One day at night, the parents discuss in front of the girl and say they'll bring the girl for operation the next day. The girl heard and kept thinking to herself she got no problem speaking.

The next morning, the girl woke up and saw the mom walk out from the bathroom, the girl call out "Maaa...". The mom is overjoyed and the girl can see from the mom's expression that her mom is totally relieved! The mom then walked over to the girl and ask if she need anything, but the girl just shake her head.

Ever since, the girl is still a cry-baby but she do talk a lot and is also a very straightforward kind of girl. She's so honest that she didn't know how to lie. She also is the type of girl who kept almost everything inside, but will speak up when needed.

At Form 3, the girl got rebellious. She start to learn how to cut classes, she start how to hate the teachers and even start a little on gangsterism. Maybe because she's been guarded by a very strict parents, she like to go against them whenever she could. She even start to being friends with guys when all this while she's been studying in an all-girls school. Most of the guy she knew, some of them is interested in her, some of them will become close friends.

At Form 5, she already knew the existence of ICQ and she chat almost everyday with her online friends. She even met a few of them face to face and some of them, she is happy that she met them. Then one day, she met a bunch of guys friends which was introduced by her cousin brother. Those bunch of guys is so curious about her looks that they kept coaxing her and the cousin brother to come out to see how she look like. After much coaxing, the girls agreed to come out and meet up with them, without the cousin brother tagging along as the cousin brother is not interested in all this.

After the meet up the next day, the girl went over to the cousin brother's house to hang around. Then the cousin brother was teaching her something regarding computer while the cousin brother is chatting. Suddenly, the bunch of guys friends that the girl met yesterday, came online and chat with the cousin brother. The first message that they send to her cousin brother is, "Hey, your cousin not pretty lah. Not attractive also... cannot lah..."

The girl saw this message and was shocked and even couldn't believe her own eyes for reading that message. She thought of them as friends, thought that they're easy-going and is friendly. She really couldn't believe when they said that about her. She's so hurt that she just sat there, stunned. The cousin brother saw her facial expression changed and quickly reply his friend saying the girl is just sitting next to him and read everything he wrote.

Without waiting for the guy's reply, the girl walkaway. That night, the girl cried. She couldn't believe that those guys said that about her. She never judge them of their looks but instead, they judged hers. The girl is so hurt that she cried till her eyes is so swollen that she almost couldn't open her eyes the next day.

From that day onwards, the girl concentrate all her time on studies and ignore the bunch of guys friends when they came online to ICQ. Although they said they're sorry to say those hurtful things about her but the deeds is done. She then ignore them and even told them not to judge anything about her sister or brother after they met them.

When it's almost time for SPM, she study so hard that when she just woke up, she'll read. She'll read books while taking her lunch, will take a very quick bath so she could save her time for study. She didnt watch TV for the whole month that it made her sister worried so much. The sister even tell her just go out for at least an hour just to watch TV but the girl ignore her. All the girl wanted to do is scored as much A's as possible for her SPM. She wanted to make her parents and her families proud of her for able to study with good results. She wanted to prove to those guys who hurt her that, even though she's not pretty and not attractive, at least she got the brain to study, to think and do things she wanted to do in the future.

In the end, she got what she hoped for. She aimed for 4 A's for her SPM but she got 5 instead. The family is so proud of her that they're overjoyed. All the no TV for a month, no entertainment at all for a month paid off. Even the bunch of guys got to know her results is proud of her and didn't dare to say anything at all...

But this is just the beginning of the girl's life....