Separation...

Time is getting closer and closer.......
It flew off with just a blink of an eye....
I couldn't feel the separation is getting near the past few weeks...
But I could feel it now ever since I got to make the 2 choices...

I don't know how to express my feelings now but I could say that, IF possible, I didn't want the separation to happen. I didn't even want him to go so far away from me. We've been together for 7 years, where there's not a week that we didn't see each other at all. Well we DID have but I could guarantee, the max also is not more than 3 weeks.

Just thinking of being separate from him for dunno how long, my eyes got all blurry with tears...

How am I to pass my time when he's not around me?
What should I do during my free time on weekends?
Who am I to tell of my sadness, happiness, excitement and etc to?
Who should I call if I need advises?
Who should I call if I need directions??
Where should I get a hug from when I need one?
Who should I go to when I need some love?

Sometimes I wish that I could just forget about my job and go with him to wherever he wanted to go. It means nothing even if I got a good career here. It means nothing even if I earned a lot here. He's not here, it means nothing at all...

This morning he told me this,

"You are not able to let go of SAP and definitely not your family, so just choose whatever you wanted most. Don't think about me. Just think of your own future."

When he said those words, it hurts. It hurts a lot. The reply that came to my mind is only this, "My future is you. I just want to go wherever you want. Do whatever you want as long as we could be together." But I didnt tell him those. Cuz I couldn't go with him to where he wanted yet. Not yet.

Some would say I'm being so girly saying all those things. Yes I do admit I sounded girly or watever shit. Surely some would say "No boyboy doesn't mean you can't live anymore" or some even would say "Now is the 21st century. Wake up girl! If you could support yourself, what for we need a boyboy??"

Just say I can't live without a boyfriend's or a husband's love?

Choice 1 or Choice 2??

Life is full of choices... Now I'm in the midst of whether to choose to stay in technical field or to proceed with consultancy....

Choice 1: Become ABAP-er (Technical)
Pros: It's real hot on the market worldwide where if you're good at it, you could earn up to RM10k per month... that is if you got enough experience and IF you would want to stay in technical field. It would take about 5 to 6 years if you want to get that RM10k per month salary lah.

Then if after 5 or 6 years you do not want to continue with technical field and feels like changing to functional (consultancy) field, you could provided that you know the functionality of that SAP A1 system.

Cons: I'll have to be bonded by the company for 2 years without any benefit except that I get to learn what is ABAP and how SAP A1 works. I would of course get to learn ABAP from a very strong technical background "si fu" but ermmm.... too bad she's not that good at teaching.

Not saying she's bad or anything but there are people where they're good at what they do but they are not good at explaining or transferring what they know to other people... So it'll be like I'll most likely to learn ABAP by myself and of course could ask questions here and there but it wouldn't be enough. I would let them bond me IF they give me external training with a certificate.

But too bad, if I accept then must bond............

Choice 2: Become SAP B1 Consultant
Pros: No bondage!!! I could learn the basic ERP business processes and all the workflows and etc. I could finally be in the job I wanted for a long long time... well... maybe not so long lar... but for the past 2 years, I've wanted to become a consultant mar....

Cons: SAP B1 Consultant is not that hot on the market. It is actually suitable for small to medium type of companies as the system are not enough to cope for large corporation or companies. Then SAP B1 Consultant wage are not that much too. Max I think could only go up to RM5k.

If I wanted to switch from SAP B1 Consultant to SAP A1 Consultant, it'll be quite difficult as both system are considered very different from each other. Imagine SAP B1 is a grass and you want a grass to grow to become a rose, it's hard ain't it??

I've asked opinions all around and most of them would of course ask me to go for Choice 1 as it's good for my future and etc and what's more, I could earn more!! But surprisingly, it didn't interest me that much. Of course I'm not so stupid as not to want the money but it's technical. I didn't want technical anymore.

Well there's people saying, "Since you've work in technical for the past 3 or 4 years, why not another 2 years??". True but you imagine, you've been frustrated with technical job already, you're not even happy working in technical field, would you want to torture yourself for another 2 years????? You might say "Why not?!?!!?", but not me. I couldn't torture myself to do something I didn't want anymore.

Moreover, my goal is to become a consultant, so why not just head to consultancy right? Sighhhhh.... Is my choice correct?? Even Huei now is facing quite the same problem as me.... sighhhhhhhhh.....

So for you, would you choose money over your interest???????

Food again...

Everyone eat food every single day rite? So am I!!! It's been quite some time I didnt update my blog regarding what nice food I ate so here goes...

Last 2 weeks when my boyboy's Aunt and Uncle is back home from Aussie, we brought them out to some pub to have a drink... So they ordered beer while I order some cocktail....

Pina Colada!! It's nice if you love coconut taste...

Then on Saturday night, I've been pestering my boyboy to bring me go eat at the "dai chao" behind Tawakal Hospital at Setapak and he finally agreed!!! YAYY!!!! So we ordered the yummy "Char Peh Ker", some fishball sticks (dunno what izzit called) and 1 more dish that I forgot...

Then my boyboy said that the satay there is yummy too... so we ordered 10 sticks and IT IS INDEED YUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!! NO chicken fats no chicken skin!! PURE CHICKEN BREAST MEAT!!!!

SEE!! No fats 1!!!!! MANA CARI!!??!?!?!?!?!?!

Seriously no fats and it's super YUMMY!!!

After the meal, both of us almost can't walk adi... too full lar...

On Sunday, we went to my ex-high school nearby "dai chao" to eat the popular "Hennesy Loh Mee" and some other nice food...

Hennessy Loh Mee

My boyboy also happy he could eat this loh mee too!!! :D

Then at night, we went shopping around The Curve looking for a new specs for my boyboy and some new clothes for CNY for him too. I bought a dress and a pants the other day so I didn't really go look for mine.

But before we head for shopping, we have to of course filled our stomach first... So we went to Dragon-i Restaurant since my boyboy haven't tried this restaurant before...

We ordered their popular "Lah Mian" and some other dishes and hoh........ the so-called popular "Lah Mian" not nice 1 loh... it's like I'm eating flour!!! But the dishes is OK...

Dunno what yolk bun... veli yummy!!!

See the insides of it?? YUMMY!!!!!!!

So next time who wanna go Dragon-i Restaurant, remember NOT to order their "Lah Mian"... really not nice 1 loh...

Radio Blizzzzzzz....

Every morning it is a must for me to listen to Hitz FM morning crew JJ and Rudy. They're the person who could make my dull morning to a FRESH morning... hmmm... sounds like I'm advertising them for free oni... hahahaha... But anyway... it's true that I must listen to them talk crap and make fun of other people early in the morning...

Today's topic is to ask people to tell them stories about slimy guys... So there's this guy who called up and said that he does not trust his gf's best friend... which of course is a guy cuz he got the feeling that this so-called best friend is interested in his gf and want his gf more than just best friend...

So JJ and Rudy called up the girl and ask if she trust her best friend and if she thinks that the best friend is interested in her. She of course said that she trust the best friend as they're just best friend and bla bla bla...

In the end, JJ and Rudy made a test whereby the gf will have to call up the best friend to say she's having problem with the bf and planned to breakup and etc... so here's the phone conversations...

Gf: Hello *toot*, where are you now??
BestFren(BF): Hi morning, I'm on the way to work. Wassup??
Gf: Oh ok... Well... I got problem ler... My bf nih... he don't trust me...
BF: Ooorrhhh... Guy's problem lar... Well, guys is like that... bla bla bla *advising her bout guys dunno wat wat wat*
Gf: Well OK... but he just don't trust me...
BF: Well I dunno if I should tell you this but ermm... the other day I saw your bf with a girl.. Well I think they're just friends lar you know, but ermm... they came out for dinner and they seems close... I dunno lar but... I think they're just friends though..
Gf: So anyway.. do you think I should just break up with him since he don't trust me?
BF: Well erm... it's a big decision you know...
Gf: Ya... OK... OK.. I asked you this then... If.. IF lar... I broke up with my bf, will you... will you errr... be my bf??
BF: * stunned * ......... *silence for quite a while*
BF: Well you... you know what.... I would love to and I think it'll be great.. and I tell you what, I will sayang you, I will jaga you... I will take care of you with all my heart...

Well, even before the gf start with the "tests", I already got the feeling that this best friend of hers is already interested in her cuz the way he talked to her is tooooooo errr... how to say... too "manja". Normally a guy will only talk like that when they're talking to their gf (where they love a lot hah... not those very ego kinda guy hah) or to the girl they are kao-ing... hehehehehe...

So when he said he would love to be his bf, the conversation end there without further info and then there's songs playing and etc. I wonder what is the gf reaction and if they'll still continue be best friends?? I guess not huh??

There's a lot of people told me that I can't be a best friend with guys as guys and girls tends to fall for each other when they knew each other too long and etc. But I think it's not true... cuz I and Ka Lei consider as best friend as I told him ALMOST... i insist hah.. ALMOST every problem that I have and etc but we still don't love each other... Reason is because he's not my type and I'm not his type... *insists by Ka Lei to make it bold and red*

Then there's Paulus where I also ALMOST told him all my problem and etc... But still we don't fall for each other mar.... Same case as Ka Lei, he's 100% not my type and I'm 100000% not his type... hahahahaha... true huh Paulus???

Then there's also Terence... well ermmm.... although he's slightly my type and I'm LITTLE BIT his type, but we still didn't fall for each other... cuz ermm... I think there's just something missing lar... don't have that kinda feel leh... :D

But anyway, if you have a guy's best friend as above, what will you do huh??

Its Scandaloussssss.....

Yup it IS scandalous wat... Opened the newpaper 2 days back and was shocked to see that our current-ex-Health Minister being peeped spy-ed by someone who wanted him "dead" from politics... What's worst, it's being speculated on DVD's summore!!!!!!!! WAT THE HELL!!?!?!?!?!?!?!

A HEALTH minister summore!!!! aihhhh... summore kena taped!!!! aihhhhh... I wonder how his family felt heh?? Imagine this, his 2 sons and a daughter met up with their friend and their friend said this:-

Friend: Huah your dad si beh hamsap!! "Kiu kai" kena taped!! aihhh...
S/D: .......
Friend: Summore show a lot of positions leh... hahahahahaha...
S/D: ....... * damn paiseh adi *
Friend: Ur dad veli kuat hoh?? 60 years old liao still can leh!!!!
S/D: * looking for holes to hide *
Friend: Pity ur mom... da husband dun 1 "do it" with her... aihhh...
S/D: * CABUT!!!!!! *

I wonder if all guy's with "status" is like that? Go "kiu kai" and felt damn satisfied with it??? Didn't ever think of how da kids/wife felt IF they got to know it?!?!?!

Or I wonder they'll feel ANYTHING if da wife who's doing all those things with other guys!??!?!!? Oh for sure they'll say for guys is different lah, guys no "sit dai" lar... and blah blah blah.... They're talking shit oni loh!!

If they got angry and humiliated for da wife did those things, then they should THINK of themselves 1st!!

What's worst, I read da news with my boyboy's uncle whom he's an Australian and he laughed non-stop since the newpaper titled "Sex caught on tape of a 'politician'".