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Is this a sign?

I had a dream last nite. Can say it's a very bad dream for me as I woke up, I could feel the tears in my eyes flowing down on my pillow. This is the second time I cried while I'm dreaming.

The 1st ones would be when my beloved Uncle Alan passed away after a year, he came into my dream. He told me to take care of his beloved kids especially Shaun. I guess he knows I love Shaun like he's my own younger brother. When he's "leaving" my dream, I held out my hands and kept shouting to him "Don't leave ber gu!! Please don't leave!! I missed you a lot! Please...!!!", and that's when I woke up, my hands are held out and my tears are flowing non-stop.

This the 2nd time, I dreamt that I argued with my boyboy in the car. I don't know what we argued about but it's quite "heated". In the end, I cried and told him "I'm like this! If you can't accept it, then we just break up!!". Then I got out from the car crying non-stop, hoping he'll come and chase me to say he's sorry or watever as long as he don't want to break up. But when I turn around, he drove off angrily, like he didn't care at all. Then I cried so hard that I lie on the floor, in the middle of the road, crying uncontrollably. Then I woke up. That's when I felt the tears in my eyes, flowing again onto my pillow.

I wonder if this is a sign to tell me to just give him up? If it is, I really can't let go. I really don't want to let him go. Everytime I thought of it, my heart ache so much its like a knife stabbed on it. What should I do?

Below are the songs I listened to currently and it's like what I feel right now...

Taken all I could take and I cannot wait
Were wasting too much time
Being strong holding on
Can't let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won’t give up that easily

Blow it away, Blow it away
Can we make this something good
Well I'll try to do it right this time around
Let’s start over
I'll try to do it right this time around
It's not over
There’s a part of me that’s dead and in the ground
This love is killing me, but you’re the only one
It's not over
--- by Chris Daughtry "It's Not Over"

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl
I just need you you to know girl
I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms
--- by Shane Ward "No Promises"

I'm listening to this song and hope I could really move along....

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
--- by The All-American Rejects "Move Along"

216 blahs:

Jace said...

oh my dear... *hugssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss*
I have a story for u. Just tat i don have time to write now.
Will tell u soon.

*hugsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss*

:(

Huei said...

dun feel that way...u're afraid that he will leave thats y u had that dream..it's not a sign

xianglooi said...

ya lo ya lo.. huei is right.. u dream is because u think... dont think too much la.. my dear!! *HUGGGGGGGGGSSSSS*

Calvin said...

Yeah Huei is right... It is just a dream and definitely not a SIGN!

This is just a reflection of your mind... afraid of losing your boy boy

Don't think too much

julieann said...

hey guys & gals,
thanks for the supporting advices and comfort. I really appreciate it. Sometimes I tends to think too much... but now i'm ok oledi.. just veli bz with work... me and boyboy also OK, just haven't really talk things thru yet... but we're both ok... thanks a lot yah!! *HUGSSSSSSSS*

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